Riky Rick wrote an emotional message to his wife, Bianca Naidoo, and two children, Maik and Jordan before committing suicide on Wednesday morning.
The rapper apologized to his family in the note which was reportedly shared by a source close to the rapper.
“Dear Bianca, this pain is too much. I don’t want you to blame yourself for my life being unbearable. This was the greatest period of my life. You gave me more love than I deserved. Please do not blame yourself. Live your life. Don’t hide the light you gave me every day.”
“I’m sorry for being the one who gives up but the pain I feel is too much to deal with. The voices in my head have never gone away. I wish I was stronger but
“I’m not. Please forgive me. I love you so much. Be Happy. Smile. Everything is okay now,” reads the note.
Speaking to his son who wants to be like him, Boss Zonke said:
“The other night Maik said he wants to be just like me. Not better in the sense of useless achievement, but better as in choosing the right path for his heart. Follow your passions my son. Your world is bigger than anything you could ever imagine. I love you !!,” he wrote.
In his parting note to his last child, he said: “Jordan, the best thing that ever happened in my life. You taught me so much about life. Thank you for being so good to me. Thank you for being such an inspiration to me. I love you. I’m sorry. Keep each other close. Love each other. Please don’t blame yourself. I cannot take the pain. I love you.”
However, an investigation has started and the police are yet to share any details on the investigation.
“We have opened an inquest docket for investigation. Police cannot confirm or deny a suicide note written by the deceased,” Gauteng Police spokesperson, Mavela Masondo said as he refused commenting on the suicide notes.